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Day 363 of 365 - Loving this machine…
Originally uploaded by taps7734

It is official…. I suppose I have hit my mid-life crisis.

As of Sunday I will be in my “Late 30s”…. not my mid- or early-… but LATE. I figured 40 would be the number that would effect me… but It looks like I am getting it out of the way early.

I have spent the last few weeks looking back on my life. Remembering the late teens and 20’s. I spent a lot of time indulging in the traditional, if not cliche, Sex Drugs and Rock-And-Roll. I was a wanna-be musician who moved from a little town in Ohio to the Atlanta area in order to seek my fame and fortune. I was going to be the fairy-tail story of a rock star. I was having the time of my life. Living out of my car or whoever I conned/begged into putting me up for the night. You ever heard this joke: What do you call a musician without a girlfriend? Homeless!…. yea… well it isn’t a joke. I spent a bit of time doing what I could to make it as a drummer. After a few years I realized a few minor issues…. 1) I wasn’t that good. 2) There were hundreds of drummers in Atlanta that were that good. Eventually, I sold my set for beer money, and found a job doing what I knew how to do well. Welcome to the world of computers. Bleh.

Good things that happened there too…. Being a “musician” made me a lot of friends. I met a wide variety of people. Lots of other musicians, technical people, promoters, music reps, club owners, groupies…. Mmmmmm Groupies… some of my favorite people in the world. Especially the ones with rich parents, and a lack of morals. Those were my favorite women in the world.

Needless to say… even though my 20s were hard… they were fun. In my 30s, I have kind of had to force myself to grow up and take responsibility. Marriage and a child will do that to ya.

So now, there is no more of the classics. No more Sex, Drugs, and Rock….. granted… I am still a huge fan of music…. so the Rock is still there…. And my drugs of choice now are Caffeine, Nicotine, Alcohol, and Sugar (The 4 Major Food Groups)…. I still have sex… Lots of sex…. hell… every once in a great while, there is someone else involved. So I suppose I can convince myself that I haven’t changed a bit in 20 years….

Outside of my family, this photo is a representation of the 2 things that make me the happiest right now in my life. A camera and a bike. I am fantasizing about taking a month off from work and riding across the country next year. Just me, the bike,and my camera. Actually, if it was possible, I would prefer to fly down to Australia for a month. Spend the entire time riding from one city to the next. Photographing everything I could get in my viewfinder. I have a “Friend” there I have known for over 10 years. But we have never actually met. I would like to fix that….. eventually.

Don’t take this the wrong way. I am not getting all depressed. I’m not looking for pity. I hope this doesn’t come off as whining in any sense. I’m just feeling a bit introspective at the moment and thinking with a keyboard here. Voicing my dreams and desires….

Whether it is life, love, work, or anything else…. with no desire, then you are just going through the motions.

Day 293 of 365
Originally uploaded by taps7734

Day 293 of 365

Here is my cliche shot like everyone else is doing. I dont think I have ever done an eye close up…. so now was a good time.

Uploaded by taps7734 on 17 Jul 08, 1.22PM EDT.